Just incase

So today
when going though my files
to find
tax returns.
From the years:
1999 -2005
To prove, I didn't live where the accounts where opened

I found a bank statement, from Bank of New York,
which is now closed,

But while my ex husband got phone service, PSE&G (gas & power), a cell phone and some credit cards, exact number yet determined, and other things...

in September 2002
I had $33.42 in the bank.

He was a
Yeah, class act.

Don't worry
I am pissed.
and have filed a police report..
sent faxed
made copies
and called a lawyer..

Karma

It's a bitch..

Oh, and good thing I remember his SS#..

SO. Take it from me

Well
I will tell you, first hand
Identity theft
and
Ex-husbands

Suck

It sucks even more when it's is your ex-husband using your identity.
Sucks,
That he used it from 1999-2002.
Phone service, Public Service. Cell phones.
All at a time, like I have told you I was soo soo poor.
I never got child support
Never had any medical insurance from him for her
No eyeglasses or braces...
No help
just a world of hurt.

Now
Judgements.
Lots of them
And
Lawyers.
Expensive ones.
And
at a time, when
our kids need Christmas.

Well now...

I think I am red in a sea of blue.

I don't care about gay or strait.
Be happy really.

I believe women should have a choice.

I believe in education.

Hate me because I am a republican. Hate me because I think how I think. Hate me because I have a mixed daughter. Hate me because I have things, you don't..
Really, I don't care.

I don't live in California. I didn't vote for Prop8. Hate me.

Hate me, fine.
Don't come here with your message of hope and love, with rainbows and candy and talk about hate.
Yes I am married.
Yes, my first husband was black & I married him. Yes I know at one time that was illegal.
See, I get all that.
I know in time things change. And for today.
For right now, it is what it is.
You asked people to vote, they did.
They voted and you don't like it.
It was a vote. It what it is, and maybe it sucks.

But see, I don't care either way. I am sorry for that.
You have the right to be happy. Be happy.
Don't come here and shit on me, I live in NJ.

Random Thoughts here On the Sideline

Ok
Random Thought one:
Our President made a speech today.
He said he was absolutely confident in the future of this country.
Me?
Not so much.
Not so much confident at all of the next 4 years.
just sayin.

Random Thought Two
I think a good plan would be for the UAW to find the money to help Ford, Chrysler and GM. They did it they fix it.
ohh wait..didn't they just give a shitload of money to the Obama campaign.

So I say UAW, really union tough, union strong? FIX IT.
Figure it out, make it right.

Last one:
Really, Prop 8. Over in good Ole California.
There are stories of riots, looting churches, and just utter dismay.
It was a vote. Put to the people.
They didn't want the constitution changed.
Its a state thing. I guess I don't understand.
But even Elton said Civil Unions were good enough.

Irony? It was all black voters who said no way. You wanted Obama. you got him. You wanted people to vote for your savior. They did. now what?
You don't like what they said...
Too bad, so sad.
Come to the East coast, Connecticut passed gay marriage into law, just today..or was it yesterday?

Just sayin.

One Less

I am driving less.
Down to one tank a week.
Gas today, $2.05..Tatal $45.00
I am going to Walmart and Target less.
We are eating out less.
Down to once a month, pizza delivered. Not Chinese, way too expensive.
Shopping less. TheKeeper, was not happy about that. Believe me.

We have cut back, in many areas. I can't help but think, many have.
Not really living different. Always did coupons. TheKeeper still goes to the movies, football games and the mall..Just spending less

What about you?

I got the blues

Sick kids
Stressed Husband
Rain.

Blues? I have them.

I want to leave my house. My house of puke.
I want to sit in Borders or Barnes and Nobel
I don't want to strap anyone in to get there.
I just want to walk out the door and get in the car.
When I get there I just want to read
just read
whatever I want.
Not hear any of my kids
or my husband

only me.

Question

I read blogs in the wee hours of the morning
with coffee and a calm quiet house.

I have found, that there are a few I don't read anymore.
Maybe it's because I don't like what they have to say anymore.
Or just don't care.

So, on the other hand, I have found more people like me now that I've gotten all Republican.

So, be all Obama about it, but I aint reading it anymore.

You?

Ok, the post below is..

I know Chrysler, GM and Ford will not "fail"
that is not what I am saying.

It needs to go in to bankruptcy, so it can be fixed.
The higher ups, need to stop the insanity.
The unions, need to wake up. and deal with the problems, in part they caused.

Look at the other car factories...umm like Toyota or Honda...Union run? Union operated?

Ugg and the teachers union. HORRIBLE. and Im a teacher.

I believe in Obama, that we need change.
But just not his change..

The republican party has 4 years,
To make a plan.

Money.

When we needed money, we went to gramps.
Dad? was worthless in many ways, and always broke.
Anyway.
He needed to always know the plan.
For one month
and month two.
Will you fix it? Is it temporary? What is the plan? What is your plan?
You needed the answers. You needed the right answers.

He always know, if he gave to one, he had 4 more right behind coming with their hands out for their cut.

So. I was thinking.

If AIG, gets more money? What is their plan? More parties?
Then if AIG gets money, you have to give Franny Mae and her brother Frannie Mac the same. What's their plan?

Now AIG, Frannie Mae and Mac..Who's next?
Chrysler and GM?
The Farmers?

Right, you give to one, you give to all.
And soon, but he got more will come in to play...

But really what is the plan. Will it fix a month? maybe 2, what then?
Really. It is a old horse. Let it die.. The pension and the unions will kill GM, Ford and Chrysler.

We are in for a world of hurt.
The government needs to say
Too bad, so Sad. Only the strong survive..

It sucks, really but change is hard.

So on one hand, I say we have planned for this. Pulled all our money out of the market last January. Well, left some. But made sure we had what we needed for TheKeepers college, and living on cash for at least 4 years (starting 1.20.09)
Paid off cars and out mortgage.

We will live simple.
and
Pray
for
"Just one term"

Just so you know..
Im hoping for a Jimmy Carter type thing, while people liked him and all..he sucked as a president

Why did you vote for Obama?

Pretty funny.
Democrats.. I mean.

Gotta Love Chuck

I Loves me some Chuck Norris..

Enjoy!

Cause and Effect

So
The accountant did the books yesterday.
The books of our small business.
The small business, we bought.
The small business that was opened back in the early 70's.
The small business, that has been open 5 sometines 6 days a week for 20 years. With overtime during the Fall and Spring. Overtime paid in cash, BTW. Double time.

In order not to fold, to close our doors.
In order to keep offering the Obama supporting employees, health insurance and sick time and holiday pay.

We will go to a four day work week, close on Fridays
That is 20% less pay.
For everyone. Even us.

Yay Obama. Go ahead, raise our taxes.
We will have no choice but to
lay off, your loyal voters.
Create more unemployment of your loyal voters..
Give you more loyal voters to insure.

Now, they, the loyal Obama supporters, think my husband is a bad guy.
He, like "the man" doesn't care about them.

Umm really. SO Sorry you feel that way.
Don't let the door hit you on the way out....

Just sayin.

Damn Wii

So
Another question..
I finally find a Wii.
Looking for the damn thing for a long damn time.
So
why?
Has it been available on Amazon all freakin day.


Arrrgh.
My life sometimes.

A can of worms.

So this is bothering me..
Obama's mother was born a white baby in Kentucky, right?
His dad, born a black baby in Kenya, yes?

So Obama is Mixed, correct?

We know he was raised by his mothers parents, also correct?
So he was raised by white people.

Still correct?

You all know by now, my daughter is mixed. Her father also left, at about 2 weeks, not 2 years, but really who's counting?

If my daughter was in the same position, in 20 years, and never mentioned this. Never talked about it. Went on to writ a book "The sin's of my Father" about a man who left us

I would be devastated.
Hurt.
Would he have been elected if he had done the same for his Kenyan Heritage? Forgot about it? Never mentioned it? Like an elephant in the room..

I don't like John McCain..Why?

And I am crazy?
Good thing, I'm glad I voted for the "right" guy.

Educate yourselves folks
Educate your children

Google is your friend. YouTube to prove they said it.

AM I a Conservative?

Well. first I am a registered Democrat.
I registered when I was 18, a I was a Democrat.
Really. I was a free thinker, believed in Clinton.

Fast forward

For my 21st birthday, I went to a bar.
For my 22nd birthday, I went to Social Services.

I went because, I was 22. I was poor. I had just left my husband, and TheKeeper was maybe 4 weeks old.
I asked for help. I really thought I could get a little help.
I didn't need Medicaid, because I had insurance. (second mistake)
I just needed help with food. and really just enough to get me back on track.
Well folks. There is no such help, or wasn't at the time. Or not for me. Because I was told, Quit your job (first mistake), sell your car and come back we can help you then...umm ok then. I think not.
Next, I went to the food store, it was Pathmark, and I had $20 to get me food and formula..but the girl ahead of me? She had foodstamps and steak. She was dripping in gold jewelry. Know by this time I had sold all my gold for rent, but I digress. She drove away in a BMW.
It was then I knew. At that moment. Help wasn't there for me.

So I worked harder. Spent less. Made a budget.
Believe me, I was poor. Dirt poor.
But I made it,

So, yes I was bitter. But stronger for it. I volunteered in food kitchens and homeless shelters.
I thought I could change things
I saw crack heads get help. I ladies have more babies, I saw people with boyfriends get help, because they had no one.
Still I thought I could change it.
Yes, from time to time you saw people who really needed help get help.
But alot of the time you saw ladies, with their hair and nails done.
Me, I still had $20 to feed my kid.

Fast Forward.
TheKeeper is 3
I met my Husband. He loves me and my daughter. He plays Santa, buys a tree and puts gifts under it.
Still I work hard, and wait until TheKeeper is 10 to marry him. Because I love him, not because he is a free ride.

But I did become a Conservative. A Republican. Because things need to change. Because we are to nice to the really poor.
The change needs to come in the social programs, with drug testing and stricter policies. Make it harder to get. Make it harder to stay on.
Not promise them things like free money and free health insurance. Not paying a mortgage they should have never taken, or credit cards they maxed out.
That is not what this country is about.
It about hard work and paying your own way. Feeding your own kids. Paying taxes.

I am scared for our future. I am scared for the kids in my daughters generation.

Now, believe me. I could care less about who you live with, but call it a union. Really marriage happens in a church, take it up with religion not the government. Stem cell research will help my loved ones.

Maybe I'll fininsh one day, but for now you get the point.

So, Im Confused.

I was reading about a few things.
The buy out of the banks, namely AIG.
Another stimulus package
a possible credit card buy out, or whatever they want to call it.
and this whole mortgage debacle.

Umm
so the government owns
the banks
it owns your debt
and your mortgage

ummm
doesn't that sound like communism? Really socialism is bad. Communism is way worse

Just sayin.

Wow, just wow.

I just wanted to add
Umm, really my SUV is on empty. Where I do get free gas..?

Yeah, didn't think so.

Choices.

In my world, we all make choices.
Choices that will sculpt your life.

My choice to rebel in High School. It was my choice to do poorly.
Still, It was my choice to go to college.
It was my choice to have my daughter at 21.

It was my choice to work hard, graduate from college.
It was my choice to raise my daughter alone.

It was my first husbands choice, not to go to college, to abuse us and drink.

It was my choice, to work to provide health insurance.
It was my choice, go to soccer practice and school plays.

It was my first husband choice, not too do these things.

It was my choice, with the help of an inheritance, to buy my first house.
It was my choice to be a mom, it was my job and my job alone to support her.
It was my choice not to buy new shoes and use the money for food.

It was my first husbands choice not to do these things, still

It wasn't my choice to go to the bar for my birthday, but I did. There I met my second husband.. Karma. Fate. Serendipity.

It was my choice to pay for braces, eyeglasses and soccer registration. Many years of soccer registration...school trips, school photos and lunches. Everything.
It was my choice to pay for Catholic School, when the public school didn't work for her

It was my choice to wait 6 years to get married. It was my choice to sell my house. It was his choice to sell his house and buy one together.

It was our choice not to take a mortgage we could not afford.
It is our choice not to use credit cards.

It is the choice of my husbands parents to give my daughter all the money she will need for college and beyond.
It was their choice to earn it, save it and now give it away.

It was the choice of my husband, to work for the same company for more than 20 years.
It was our choice to buy it, when we where given the opportunity.
It was our choice to, at a huge expense, offer health insurance for employees and their families.

Now, it was a choice, the the employees made, to vote and elect Barack Obama.
It wont be my husbands choice when his taxes go up
It will not be a choice, when he has to lay off more workers.

See, I guess what I am trying to say is we all have the choice to make a choice. A decision. It is not my fault some families don't make good choices. It isn't my obligation to fix them. Only my own.

I can live with my choices, the good ones and the bad ones.
I am accountable for what I did and have done.

Why is it OK, now not to be accountable for taking a mortgage you couldn't afford.
Why are our children not accountable? Why are our people entitled to free money?
Why are grown adults so excited $1000 extra...
Really, is losing your job and insurance worth a free $1000

Cause and effect. Every choice you make effects everything

I am a Republican. Not Racist. Period

First I voted for John McCain.
He was the Republican candidate.
I didn't vote for Barack Obama
He was the Democratic candidate.

Simple
Not Racist.

My first husband, was black.
My first daughter, has a black father.

I voted on what I believe in for this country.

I also had some concern.
1. The small business my husband owns, will have to lay off some hopeful Obama voters, because of all the new taxes on us "rich business owners"..They will be without the health insurance provided, at great cost, by the company...Oh, but never fear..Barack will give them health insurance.
2. My daughters inheritance, already taxed once. Will be taxed again. Because us "rich middle class" folk. Who have had parents leave their children's children money..well poor folk don't have any rich parents.
See, this money, from my husbands parents, gifted each year, will put her thru college. It will help her after college, with her masters.
They have already paid taxes on it. They will pay again when they give it too her..and if Barack has his way she will pay again.
(saving more for later..)

I voted for the Republican. Because he was Republican. Not because the Democrat was black.

It is not my duty to help the poor with my money. It is my duty to pay taxes. It is my duty to feed my family. Heat my home.

I was single. I was poor. I know how "it" is. I walked that mile in those shoes. But, I did it. I graduated college. I paid my bills. Had a job, a car and a house. I was really really poor.
Oh yes, all with no child support. Nothing, nada. zip. zero.
To date, I put braces on her teeth. Eyeglasses and contacts. Clothes. Food. Inhalers. Eye drops. School Clothes. Soccer cleats. Softball cleats. My husbands parents will pay for her college education.

Where is her father? Waiting for his money Obama promised him. From my pocket..again.
Gee Thanks Obama. Don't know how I even got this far with out you!

I am not racist.
Nor am I entitled to money I did not earn.

Will I vote for Obama ...